Twenty Thirteen

                              

Where does the time go?  This year has totally slipped on by.  I looked back at what I said would be some goals for 2013 and yeah...I did well with all but one- eating healthy and exercising.  That carried me about mid year and then I just fell apart.  I don't know why, but it is what it is.  Needless to say I really need to work on it.  No for real! Two reasons: I'm turning the big 4-0 this year and I need to feel fabulous & I have a family history of diabetes so that scares me a bit.  So I really need to get on the will power and determination bandwagon!  Soon!

         

On another note, 2013 brought much reflection within me.  I suppose naturally being a year from turning a milestone birthday may tend to do that to you.  (Enter truth serum here).  One of the things that has been on my mind is having another baby.  I've felt for the longest that I've been missing something in my life (or shall I say a little someone).  I must admit that I adore my two children.  Each of them have been a great blessing to me.  They have brought me much joy and total happiness.  As a matter of fact out of my many hats I wear, the mommy hat sure holds the gold in my books.  So naturally, hoping for another child has been weighing heavy on my heart this year.  You must know that my two children are 22 and 15.  I know people would be saying, wow? Really you want to start all over? Now? You should be happy where you are in life.  You are young.  Your kids are about grown.  You have all this freedom!  Why would you want to start over?  You should be doing things you've always wanted to do!  (Yes, this is what I've been advised by some lately). My mind responds yes, why not.  Then I get a little nervousness and fear deep inside wondering if I'm going through a phase or is it real? Does this sound familiar?  Although I have some supporters saying go for it!  If it happens then it was meant to be and if it doesn't, then at least you will know.  

Then there are all the factors that come up when you think about having another child.  Since I have a very occupied full time job, who will care for the child when we are working?  Will we have the energy?  Are we really too old?  Should we just wait for our grandchildren to enter our future life?  

           

As I enter 2014, I pray that God guides me towards his plan for me.  I know he has a plan for me and if it is his will, it will be done.  I pray that he helps me find the thing I am missing and help me see this season through.  

I'm ready to see what 2014 brings to me and my family.  With God's will, may it be of more beautiful memories to cherish with my family.  Wishing everyone a happy new year 2014!  May it bring you much happiness and treasured memories for you and your family!